Once more, with feeling

Back to square one, in a manner of speaking...

I find it totally awesome that it's been nearly a year since I lasted posted on here. Pretty cool, considering that the past year has been the most eventful of my life. Hand down. I've seen more ups and downs during this time than I think I've experienced in the first 20 years of my life, excluding that awkward time between 9th and 10th grade. Needless to say, I've been quite happy, actually. This is life, isn't it? Dealing through shit and living it up as hard as you can. Well, in my case, living up the small stuff. Celebrating the little victories, like getting home safely every day after driving to and from Sacramento. Shit like that.

Anyway, I'm back to square one because, like my senior year of high school, this period of time I am in now too closely resembles the time I was waiting for those college admissions decisions to come out. You see, I'm in my last semester at Sacramento City College, meaning, I'm transferring to a 4-year school this coming fall. Bitchin'! Only, that meant that this past fall, I had to apply to colleges much in the way I had to apply back in high school... It felt like a redress of high school, the same old shit playing over again, only with a few different supporting characters.

In high school, I applied to UCLA, UCSD, UCD, UCSC, USC, and SFSU. Of those, I only go into UCSC and SFSU. Quite frankly, I was OK with just getting into those two at the time because I thought it meant that I was getting out of Davis and moving onto the next chapter of my life. Wrong! I failed a class my second semester of senior year and had my admission rejected. But, inspite of my rejections at the time, it was a blessing. My years at Sacramento City College have been the most eye-opening and beautiful of my life. I've met so many awesome people, it more than makes up for what I felt I lost out on in not being able to be a part of that dorm life so many of my friends were privy to. I met Hannah...

This past fall, I applied to UCD, UCSB, UC Berkeley and Sac State. So far I've only heard from Sac State, and those fuckers didn't even admit me. Instead, they said my application was missing a class that they said I need and I can't count from the AP scores I received in high school. One fucking class. Luckily, I'm taking the equivalent course this semester, meaning that I am pretty much in at Sac State barring some crazy fucking shit that once again prohibits me from getting in. Apparently, UCSB will start to be sending out their decisions next week or so. How I wish that they accept me, just to get things started right, you know?

I'm not going crazy anxious, yet, waiting for these decisions to come out. It's just that I'm worried that I did not fill out the applications correctly or that they just don't like my essays or that I'm stuck going to Sac State. Fuck, things are so much like high school it's not even funny right now.

Sorry if I've lost my writing touch, I've been out of practice for a good while now. I haven't really been writing all that much ever since I served as editor in chief of the newspaper, ironically. Instead, I've probably read a really huge proportion more than I've written. Sad, given the fact that I've won a JACC award for a critical review piece. Time to get back in shape, time to knock all the dust off. Time to get back on track and re-center myself, which is part of the reason why I am once more writing in this blog. Thanks for reading.