The Beginning..

This college thing... Part 1 of a 3 part series-_-

the beginning (all is well, so far..)

I just started filling out part 1 of an application to get into USC. I fear that this may be the start of a long and possibly (probably) painfully dissapointing road down the college search gauntlet. Not that I fear not getting into a good college, quite frankly, I don't care what college I get accepted to. Right now, any college would do, as long as it's away from here (as in Davis). Recently, I've been seriously contemplating Sac City. I have no idea why, but it doesn't seem that bad. Looking at the HUB Special Edition, I saw that many people are attending Sac City next year. I guess they don't get the bragging rights that those who will attend Stanford, Yale, or Berkeley have. But hey, at least they are going somewhere. I don't know why I'm defending them, or why am I writing this. All I know is that filling out this first part of my first college application is really making me think, maybe even worry (if only just a little).

Here's a poem that perfectly fits the fear I'm feeling, even though I wrote it awhile ago.

Rejection Letter

Insanity drives tortured souls
to succeed.
Flies trapped on a spider’s web,
each one with a familiar story,
grouped and killed
like all the rest.

There is no shame,
they did their best.
If only they were different,
not mere garden variety,
the light that guided the way
would not have ended
with graduation.

Failure is not death,
it is easy to learn from.
Yet the sting of rejection
lingers;
there is no lesson,
just regret.

-Cecilio
^_^;